I'm torn apart. I find everything right now very confusing. Everything's in a mess. It's out of place. No , wait . At least , I don't understand what I want. For one second you made me happy and another, you made me feel as if im a fool to think that we'll be in a relationship. So I guess the problem is with me and no one else. Last night , had one good cry before I went to sleep.I felt resigned. I can't help it. I hate it. It's been countless times in a row that my heart is broken. It's really heartbreaking. I mean, right now, I don't even have the motivation to continue with my life. I know, i shan't be negative. But tell me honestly , what hopes do I have? Zilch! I hate being frustrated. I hate it that I'm always in a bad mood. I hate it , I hate it . But boy , know this, I'm willing to wait for you. I really mean it . i just wish you weren't that difficult to figure out. Well , truthfully i'm tired of being treated this away again and again. So , I guess , this is goodbye . Yes , im a loser , i gave up . cause I don't have the strength to walk on this road knowing that from time to time ima get hurt. Enough of all this. It's time I cherish my life and find happiness.

Goodbye sweetlove.

I loved you enough to take your shits.