Pain after pain. Im tired of living with pain. And I realise I may not be the only one in this tight situation. But sigh, you can't help feeling useless. You can't help feeling like there's no place in this world for you. So, what's the point ? I just feel like giving up in life. I don't see a point to continue this. It gets even more pathetic when I'm not enjoying my own bloody life. See , I really don't have anyone in this world if I were to think deep down. I mean , I used to have my father by my side whenever i'm feeling down or just felt like letting it all out, but where is he now? His own daughter doesn't even know. Pathetic ? I don't understand him sometimes. I mean, I'm his only bloody daughter and it feels like he has to take care of 1000s of children. Which is bullshit seriously. I mean, he chose a pretty young girl whom only God knows what she's really upto over he's daughter who have been there for him all his life. I mean, this is not discrimination of one's father, but , sometimes , you just feel like letting it all out. Papa, I love you. Don't do this to me .



So I got to know this guy from my school whom I've had a crush on for quite some time. And , I mean he's nice and all , but you know sometimes you just have this strange feeling in you that it's not working ? I don't see myself with him. I don't know . I hate this confusion in me that never fails to give me that sense of uncertainty. Shit. I really wish I could be with him. But what's the use of being in a love that is only one sided? There's no point at all. I guess , like I always do, I have to wait. Sigh. It doesn't matter .

Anything that’s worth having ,
Is sure enough worth fighting for
Quitting’s out of the question
When it gets tough gotta fight some more

I miss getting hugs and kisses on the forehead :'(