Well I admit , it's getting hard to forget you . Really hard . Cause you made such great impact in my life . But then , when I think again, you don't deserve this loyalty and love . Given the way you've been treating me , proves that you're such an asshole . Such a jerk . NOT a gentlemen . Nuh - uh . Yes , well done . You got what you wanted . For me to hate you . And yes , Eerfan Ahmad , I'm really hating you so much for it. So much. Yes , im full of revenge . and no , you haven't seen the worst of me , you have yet to see and that time will come fast .Mark my words , Mister ! You are gonna get what you deserve well . And hell yeah , you won't like it . You're gonna abhor it so much . And I swear , you won't be livin in peace fucker .

Hugs And Kisses .
Mwarks !

Right now , I just need to relax . I need to find inner peace . Some soul searching must be done , pronto . See , what happened , really affected me badly mentally and physically . I don't even know who am I anymore . What is my purpose in life ? What on earth , am I even doing here ? And , worst still , I lost the touch of love . I'm being the old naive Sasha . The one that is scared of everything , and want nothing but to be alone in darkness . See , how pathetic can you be to put me in such situation . You're so ruthless . Hurrrr . I need support . But sadly , there's none . What these people in my life are giving me , are not support even though they shamelessly admit it that way . Their words , of ' wisdom' appears to be hurtful . It hurts more than the ugly truth . Which , sums everything up , and placed perfectly . It's bringing me nowhere .



Frustrations .
Ugh . It's so hard to forget everything and live life like all those shits never ever happened . Maybe there's something wrong with me . I really need a break . I mean physically . I can't do my daily stuffs the right way anymore . Look at the damage you've done Mister , well thumbs up . Cause you got what you want . And it's almost as if you've planned everything beforehand and .... tada . Your 'hard work' paid off . All I'm asking for , is just one chance , for me to slap you hard right across your face. And that , would make me feel like the happiest girl on Earth . Yeah . If not , to find yourself in a tight situation where alot of damage is done to you , will make me feel happy too . You deserved it . I sound so bitchy . Oh well , but who cares .






I can't help myself , I keep playing with fire .